Reading a book compiled from the works of Oswald Chambers on Prayer, I am under conviction for my lack of vision, understanding, and focus. So often I pray wondering if I am worthy to approach the throne. Am I good enough, spiritual enough, immersed enough in the Holy Spirit to be heard by the sovereign of the universe?
Reminded by the very words of God that it is not my worthiness that determines his faithfulness, I lay on my face and repent of my conceit. How arrogant that I would consider myself as important enough that if I do not come spotless in my own right, that I might somehow tie the hands of God from answering prayer--something he has promised to do!
Do I, a mother, refuse to feed my children when they have misbehaved? Do I refuse to clothe them? Do I refuse to comfort them in their distress? Do I refuse to bandage the wound that is self-inflicted? No! If I, an imperfect mother, know how to give good gifts to my children, how much more will my father in heaven pour out his blessings on his children!
I must re-learn to approach God as a little child; to put my trust wholly in him, not on myself or my own merits, but only on what I know him to be. He is the almighty maker of heaven and earth, he can do anything. He is never changing, his love for me is a constant. He is always faithful to his promises, I cannot change his resolve. He is full of grace, mercy, holiness, integrity, love, faithfulness, and gentle determination to bring about his will in my life, my family, my church, my city, and my world. I can trust him. I must trust him.
Oh, God, break my reliance on myself and cause my heart to trust only in you. I repent of my conceit in thinking that my imperfection could stand in the way of your perfect plan! Thank you for Jesus my great High Priest who makes it possible for me to boldly approach your throne, as your child to climb on your knee and make known my heart's desires to you, to listen to your desires for me, and to be willing to allow your hand to transform me into the likeness of your Son. Let it be so-Amen.
